I’ve been reading many posts on blogs and facebook about 2012. The usual yearly reviews that people do, and there seems to be a common theme amongst the things I’ve read…2012 was a challenging year for many. I could write at length a philosophical perspective on why it has been such a year, but I’ll fore-go that to simply say that I too have been experiencing what I’ll refer to as “growing pains.” As I look back and ponder my own journey I consider the words of writer, Haruki Murakami:
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
And so I realize in this truth that I have had many moments of suffering over the past year…well, several years actually…all creations of my own mind. Don’t get me wrong, there have been many moments of wonderful experiences too. But, I would have to say that as the year waned into winter, my worries carried me into the cold, hollow feelings of fear and anxiety. And with it, came the manifestations of that fear. Well, duh, of course. The vibe we put out in the world comes back to find us, and here we are creating the very thing we don’t want to happen, simply by ruminating on it obsessively. Of course I know these things… intellectually. For god’s sake, I’ve been preaching stuff like this for years. It’s one thing to have an understanding of such a concept, but the application of that knowledge in service of one’s own healing comes far too slowly. At least is seems so for me in retrospect. So as the end of the Mayan calendar approached, and I considered the run-away freight train of my mind that I was on, I concluded that I had better get off this inevitable wreck…and quick. The shift of Dec. 21st was upon us and I wanted to be in a much better vibe moving forward. So, I slowed down. Meditated. Often. And even before the 21st dawned I felt a shift beginning in me and insights beginning to surface. Ideas and images floating up from the depths of my neglected soul. The beginnings of relief percolating up with them.
So, what does this all mean for 2013? For me I have decided it is imperative that I do the things that shift me from fear to love…consistently. That is our true nature. At our core we ARE love. And in my mind, to be separated from love by letting fear dominate our daily experience is to deny our Authentic Self. And it also means we choose to suffer. I am SO done with suffering.
I am continually amazed at how the Universe works when we get into alignment…vibrationally speaking. The walls of our resistance come crumbling down and synchronicities begin to happen. Already I have seen new opportunities come to my door in the early days of January, confirming to me that having faith and hope in a new, exciting and abundant year is not only wise, but it is a practical perspective. Even the things and people I need to support me in this shift I am making back to love have shown up. Walks and deep conversations with friends who share wise words. Books and audios that deepen my understanding and that encourage an active spiritual practice. Just today Marianne Williamson’s audiobook, “A Return To Love,” surfaced for me. While I have read much of Marianne’s work in the past, this particular one I have not read, and her words could not be more perfect for where I am at in the moment. I am in gratitude.
As I move through this year, what I suspect is that my art will be a reflection of this journey through a conscious vibrational shift. This constitutes much of the ideas that are bubbling to the surface of my awareness…and I’m looking forward to that. It feels like relief…and peace…and joy. And I think it is a shift that we are all being called to make – to leave fear in the ditch once and for all and to embrace the fullness of the Love that we are. My word for this year?…LOVE!…of course!
I leave you with what I most wish for you and for me in the coming year…one of the most often quoted passages from Marianne’s book. I’m sure you’ve heard it many times, and it’s a nice reminder as we move into a brand new year full of hopes and dreams.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”